Pelvic Pushes, Body Pulls And Blacking Out

September 24

From 1:30 to 2 am, I did a session before sleep. From 9 to 11 am, I did a sun session, then a strong freestyle session with spontaneous stretches.

From 1:30 to 3:30 pm, I did a sun session and lying on stomach session with spontaneous stretches for about forty minutes. It is difficult to let go of body control when lying on my stomach with facial bone movement. When I am tired, I note I am not surrendered. When I return to surrender state, facial bone adjustments are made that, “I” never would have allowed. The personality quickly learns a new technique, even to the point of pretending to surrender. Hahaha! On the stomach is one of the best positions because it forces you to surrender to distance from the pain. I hate this position, mostly because I do not want to give up control.

From 3:30 to 6:30 pm, there was a long growing phase, then blanking out and coming back to extreme pain in shoulders and upper neck. I took it as long as I could and then lay down for thirty minutes.

From 7 to 9:30 pm, I did a sitting session with opening of sacrum. A big energy ball formed behind neck and skull, that hurt and I could not get relief from it. After this, pelvic pushing started. There were many body pulls with strong pressure filling the entire dura mater. The spinal column feels like one elastic sheet and stretches to the max. I hold my breath and black out while the body pulls happen. I pushed much and worry I will hurt myself. It does something, as the right hip and sacrum released. From 9:30 to 11 pm, there were more pelvic pushes.

September 25

From 7:30 am to 2:30 pm, I did a long sun session and a laying session. My ability to surrender control of body is better. Many times, I was united with the fast movements, feeling I was doing it, liking it, being it and filling with energy. The hip and sacrum opened much on right to where physical rotation of the hips feels good. The time goes by so fast; it is difficult to believe I did this for seven hours. From 6:30 to 9 pm, there was a release in cord behind neck. From 9 to 12 pm, it was a difficult growing phase. There was work in various positions ending with skull work. Much tension released from facial bones with energy filling the skull after.

September 26: Symphonic Inner Sound, Snake Shaped Spiral In Spine

I rose twice and the energy was so strong it felt like gravity was pulling me down. The sleep was uncomfortable with strong growing reaction, especially in the hip. While this went on, I heard beautiful internal sound, like a soft symphony. Waking there is still a strong growing reaction and I am not comfortable. From 8:30 am to 6:30 pm, I did several sessions with skull crunching.

From 7 to 7:30 pm, I did a sitting session with release in right hip. I get tired of writing the same thing. The energy goes up and down and there is work in various areas and positions. Today was difficult, hurting more than usual, the energy is strong and non-relenting. I am constipated, so now I drink more water because of the intense sweating. It is difficult to digest food and I feel nauseous when I eat, which is partly due to the strong pushes and stretches. Higher-self takes over more and I am more willing to do this work and not complain. Now, a strong physical spiral forms in the spine from head to tail. It feels like a big snake when it moves and undulates. I float on that huge energy that rocks my body. From 7:30 pm to midnight, I did three freestyle sessions with spontaneous body movements and crunches.

Fast Spontaneous Body Stretches

September 27: Increasing Awareness

It was difficult to sleep and I rose twice. Awakening, I feel good with not much tension. Sitting, there is a gentle opening of the back of the neck with pops and snaps. I have estimated the number of skull turns so far during the transformation at about two million. From 7:30 am to 1:30 pm, I did three sessions.

From 4 to 5:30 pm, the energy is incredibly strong. I feel like I am being ironed out. When I let go of body control, the speed of spontaneous body movements is incredibly fast. I can tell when I am resisting or pretending to surrender body control, because it is too slow. The personality is an adapter. The head must have been worked a hundred times. A loud tone sounded about thirty minutes ago.

From 6:30 to 8 pm, I did a freestyle session, which I have not done for a while. I let go of body control well while standing but after the squat “ego” took over and I was using the new strong force of the spine to stretch through the bones and muscles. I was wearing myself out in the process. Then I was lying on my back for an hour and my body was being controlled and moved from skull bone movements. From 8 to 11 pm, I did lying and sitting sessions. There were releases in shoulders and cord behind neck. I feel the cord moving around and twisting under the scapula on right.

Insight of ability to surrender gradually increases: The ability to let go of body control increases gradually. While on my back, stretches occurred in directions that I never would have chosen. I have better ability to stay in center, which helps immensely. I see the process of enlightenment right before my eyes.

September 28: Spine Straightening, Fast Spontaneous Spine Stretches

It was difficult to sleep with strong growing reaction. From 8 to 11 am, I did a sun session. It was difficult to get started because my shoulder, head and rib cage ached at the beginning. I kept at it and eventually I enjoyed it. Energy worked on both sides of the spine to straighten it. Then there was a sudden strong movement up the back of the neck through shoulders and over top of head. Afterwards, my skull felt better aligned with the spine.

From 11 to 12 am, I did a sun session with energy working down to hips. From 12 to 2 pm, difficult work continues while lying on stomach and skull work. There was a big crack near top of skull and the right TMJ hurts much.

From 4 to 6:30 pm, there was much pelvic pushing. When I sat there was a strong reaction of spontaneous stretches and crunches going in all directions. I was not sure who was doing it. I did not feel surrendered yet it kept going on for all this time, I guess the split is blurring. When it stopped, tension was gone from the spine. From 6:45 to 8 pm, I did a freestyle session down to squat with opening of hip and sacrum and down to lying on stomach with big releases in skull. The sound from the bones moving and popping is loud. From 8 to 11 pm, I did two rounds on the back. The little tugger muscle released off the outside top of the right shoulder. The last round was painful in the skull.

Insight about the more ‘you’ give, the more ‘YOU’ grow: For years, I have wondered how self-realization manifests. Now I understand higher-self IS but self-realization has to be grown, which happens through reorganization of the mind. Each time I quiet the mind-voice, higher-self is there and changes the mind. The change to the mind is later reflected in the body as cells are replaced. Changes are made to the mind to create a body of light. I am creating my new body from my old body.

Energy Circuits Between Joints, Entire Spine Feels Elastic

September 29: Frontal Bone And Maxillae Pull

Sleep was uncomfortable and I rose twice. From 9 to 11:30 am, I did a long sustained surrender in a sun session. Daily I feel stronger and can take more. There were releases in shoulders and skull and a tone sounded. I watched energy circuits form between joints: TMJ to shoulder, shoulder to hip, hip to TMJ, on both sides and opposite sides of body. Now, a spiral of energy goes down from the top of the head to the tail, with the growing reaction like it is removing energy blocks all over. There were perhaps one-thousand head turns, where I can sit quietly and allow it, but lose focus after two hours.

From 11:30 am to 1 pm, I did various lying positions with spontaneous stretches, and then was on the stomach for about an hour. This felt good because it is the only position that can release tension from base of skull and sacrum. With each release, my body flattens and has more contact with the surface I lie on. I also feel increased body relaxation. From 1:30 to 2:30 pm, I was lying on my back with body pulls that felt good and powerful. It seems I am stretching toward perfect spinal alignment. From 4 to 6:30 pm, I did a sitting session with freefall.

From 7:30 to 9 pm, I did a lying session. It seems the entire central nervous system encompassing the spine is forming into a single elastic sheet. The stretches through body at different angles continue. I become more elastic and can move larger bones and tissues. I stopped when energy moved to skull. Then the frontal bone and maxillae were pulled down together in one strong movement, which frightened me when it happened. From 10 to 12 pm, I did a sitting session with body stretches from head to tail. I keep doing too much because of my belief that if I do only one more stretch then I will be done. It is difficult to drop this belief. I need to face the reality that there is much more to go.

Vertebrae Crunches, Ligament Snapping In Face & TMJ’s

September 30: Horizontal Bands In Chest, Spine Circuit, Neck Releases

7:30 am: it was a restless sleep. Waking, sheets of energy work upward in my body and there are horizontal bands across my upper chest and shoulders. From 8 to 11:30 am, I did a strong sitting session, with releases in shoulders, skull and neck.

From 12:30 to 3 pm, I did a sitting session with many body pulls. Then I blanked out for a long time. I think an energy circuit formed from tailbone up the spine. From 3 to 5:30 pm, I laid down with skull crunching the entire time. Near the end there was strong crunching of vertebrae down the spine, I thought it would never end. It was a difficult session, I could not drop my attitude of feeling it hurt too much and not wanting more. Once, I made a joke, “Drop the pity-party Betsy, feel joy, oh yeah, feel joy!” Then I did laugh. Something released off the right shoulder and the spine lined up through all the joints.

From 5:30 to 7 pm, I did a freestyle session. While lying, in desperation I took over and wore myself out. I cannot clearly tell the difference between my control and higher-self control of my body. From 7 to 8:20 pm, I was laying on my back with head and shoulder releases. The node behind skull released and there was a release in the adhesion between spine and scapula. After this, energy expanded and I felt a fluffy warm tingling in my legs and lower torso.

From 8:30 to 9:30 pm, the energy is still strong. I did a sitting session with more head and shoulder releases and the tingling feeling persists. From 9:30 to 11:15 pm, I lay down and there was ligament snapping in the TMJ’s, and later all the facial bones were popping with them. I wondered if the cord of personality would release from the bottom of spine. It felt like energy was coming up the spine continuously and the popping in the TMJ’s was releasing this energy. Wow, was that boring and hard to endure and my face is so sore! Eventually it stopped or I quit moving not wanting more. I blanked out and woke later at 12:15 am. It is strange how that ended suddenly. I guess I am in growing phase. My head hurts.

Insight about elastic sheets: My guess is these elastic sheets are the result of increasing enervation of muscles of the body, primarily those directly connected to the central nervous system. I think it is the phenomena of energized fascia, which cover the entire muscular system. With this new capability, different parts of the body can be spontaneously moved. I guess this elastic feeling is what it may feel like physically to be an enlightened being. The energy circuit patterns have formed before but now they manifest physically more near the surface. Perhaps I can review the notes and know what is next on the physical level.

Paired Joint Energy Work, Non-Stop Ligament Snapping In Skull

October 1

I woke at 8 am. It was a restless sleep with many kriyas. There is strong tension in the upper right shoulder quadrant in back. The growing reaction is still strong; I feel no urge to stretch. From 9:30 to 10 am, I did a sun session. There were easy head, shoulder and TMJ stretches. I feel a stretchy pull of muscles along the path from left scapula to right TMJ.

From 10 to 12 am, I did a freestyle session. I think the session last night, which popped apart the facial bones and TMJ’s must be a new phase. Energy descends both sides of the body working on the spine. The joints on both sides of the body are worked in various combinations, the right hip with the left shoulder, the right hip with the right shoulder, the right hip with the left TMJ, the left shoulder with the right TMJ, and all other combinations thereof. Now I understand that all joints on both sides of the body will work together. The spine feels like a strong and efficient machine. The movements in the body are fast and there are many releases.

From 12 to 1:30 pm, I did another freestyle session. Wow, the time flew by! From 2 to 3 pm, I did a lying on the back session. The spine feels straight on the right side. While sitting my chest and ribs feel free and loose. From 5 to 8 pm, I did a lying session with body pulls. When I stopped, a rib hurts under my arm. From 9:30 to 11:30 pm, I have been resting since the last session, I am sore. There was an intense period with spontaneous ligament snapping and cracking in skull bones with constant jaw snapping; even more than last night, maybe there were five-thousand of these. From 11:30 pm to 1 am, I continued to stretch and at the end there was a release in sacrum and hip. I just felt a strong shiver with leg elongation.

Squeezing Of Skull

October 2

From 1 to 2:30 am, I stretched until exhaustion then went to sleep. From 10 am to 2 pm, I did a sun session. There was work in tailbone, skull and spine. There was much pelvic pushing with the feeling my skull was squeezed. It felt like the entire body was squeezed. At first, it was difficult to allow this sensation but I kept at it. Soon I could sit in center; it was like holding my breath at first until I relaxed my body and disengaged as the witness. In this state, the body pulls happen spontaneously. I like the body pull because it is effective to open the body. The left side of the occipital bone and left shoulder were worked; I think this is the first time on this side. There was more work in cheekbone and TMJ areas.

From 5:30 to 6 pm, there was a slow tension release and freefall session, it was a nice break. I am still sore from this morning. From 6 to 7:30 pm, I was lying on stomach with facial bone work. It was not hard. I stayed in the sweet spot of the warm and fuzzy feeling even with painful jaw and shoulder work. Repeatedly I went back to that spot if things started to feel like work or painful. I have been zooming in on this spot the last few days wondering why it feels good. Is it that any pain can be taken while there, or is it that because I am one with myself it feels good because I have no resistance? From 11 pm to 1 am, I felt a huge energizing of my body and then skull work started. I think I need a broader perspective of what is going on with this work, when I look too near then I keep getting fooled it’s going to end soon. The entire central nervous system is increasingly like a single elastic sheet.

Insight about sexual energy: A vortex of energy builds in the pelvic bowl, which as it speeds up, concentrates around the spine and then moves down to the tailbone. As energy moves to tip of tailbone it energetically twirls and this stimulates the genitals to raise sexual energy. As far as I know, sexual climax from orgasm is the strongest energy the human body can generate. Expressed sexual energy is the spark needed to bring new life into being. Sexual orgasms are inherently part of kundalini transformation because they are the source of new life and are the growth factor.