Wow, Betsy, what a journey you’ve had! It takes courage to share this type of information for others who might be seeking answers or support. I found your first part of the book (before the journal) to be very thought provoking; definitely resonates and feels channeled to me. The journal has a lot of detail but it is helpful for others wanting to compare notes and know they’re not alone in having some of these intense experiences, no matter what the difference of level of intensity. I had a few guides encourage me to ground as opposed to let it go full steam. I’m sure there are different ways to approach the process. All the best to you on your continued journey!

Your book has given me much confirmation of my experiences over past few years. I felt a sense of relief knowing that I haven’t wasted time and reduced my fear of the symptoms experienced. I can continue to seek enlightenment and just knowing that I’m already on the right path (despite all the pain, crying, confusion, and turbulence coming up) I feel YES I need to continue to pursue this for my soul.

Hello Betsy,
I am so thrilled to have found your sites-after years of attempting to do kundalini research and coming up with very little (mostly sad and depressing stories of people who never integrated the energy and continued to suffer for decades). My big awakening started in 2008 after doing much yoga, drumming, and Ecstatic Body Postures, and took me fully by surprise with a tremendous crisis. Over the decade since then I have for the most part worked alone to heal myself and learn to integrate the energy with the help of my non-corporeal helpers and teachers. Having recently been experiencing another uptick of energy surges I was guided to google "what are kriyas", and lo and behold, here you are. What a gift! I look forward to reading your book and much more of the other information on your sites. Bless you! And many thanks to the guides who directed me here tonight!

Hi traveller,

I feel i have been guided to this place by energies and forces beyond the boundaries of my current understanding.

Once I started reading your book, I didn't feel isolated anymore. I could relate fully to almost all the energy activities you have described in your testimonial. It felt like I was reading a book about my own experiences. It felt so surreal

It further cements the notion that we are connected to a larger consciousness and have shared experiences. I hope to surrender fully to these energies trying to transform us.

Thank you for the time and effort you put into this site
Love and light from India

Hi Betsy,

Firstly, Id like to give thanks and praise to your site. Like many others I came across it searching for something which relates to my own experiences, and, I cried when I read your articles about Kundalini, because it home with me with such ferocity and knowing. I feel compelled to tell you, briefly, my experiences which span over some 20yrs.

My very first awakening happened one night when I was separated from my husband, and we had decided to give it another go, which I knew would not work but tried anyway through pure ******. We had our first son who was 2yrs old at the time of my awakening. I could not sleep and so got up and began reflecting on my life (i was 27 at the time), I saw my life flash before me and what would happen if I stayed in the marriage with my husband. Then I suddenly began writing, it flowed out of me like a river running. I knew my life at this point were to change forever and so it did.

Little did I realize that when I left my husband that I was pregnant with our second son. I had been practicing yoga for a couple of years at this time and continued throughout my pregnancy. I began reading many books and would spend hours in the library, feeling this was my sanctuary. I began meditating and contemplating life as a whole and began to see the world for what it was, and looked into my self.

I felt at peace with my life with my 2 beautiful boys, dont get me wrong, I was still attached to personality/ego in a m***ve way, and fell into very dark times over the coming years. Then when my boys reached the ages of around 5 and 8, I studied Holistic therapies, essential oils, aromatherapy etc.. which then lead me to Reiki. Following my first Reiki treatment I knew immediately this is what I wanted to learn and resonated deep within me. Following 1st and 2nd degree I began healing others, then following my Master, began teaching (just 2 years ago), and love teaching and guiding others. I also began creating my own blends of oils to help heal others, creating natural soaps etc..

And so during these past 20yrs my awakening has been a long and slow process, however, the symptoms and experiences have been happening more and more frequent, and can happen anywhere anytime. My second awakening was when my mother died, some 4 years ago. She came to me during meditation and told me she wasn't returning to this dimension this lifetime, and told me that everything is beautiful, she gave me such insights, I was so overwhelmed with comp***on, love, understanding that I thought I was going to explode.. I sobbed like I've never sobbed before, and came out the other side full of love, knowing, understanding and calm and peace. Since then I have received downloads, updates, light codes, immense bouts of light striking me in the middle of my spine giving feelings of euphoria, connectedness and one. I have also experienced the dark nights. I have faced demons, and darkness alot.. happens very very rarely now.. But what I get more and more of now is a sensation, a physical sensation, of what I can only describe as transformation, when Ive been meditation and in sleep mode, I get this m***ve tingling, like pins all over my body, like a chameleon changing colour, it begins at me feet and carries all the way up allover my body.. it wakes me up and i begin shaking.. but as it happens more and more, I enjoy the feeling.. its totally uncontrollable and is happening every other day at the moment, and also I experience alot of "waking myself up", I'm sleeping but I'm trying to wake myself up in my sleep.. shouting at myself wake up wake up.. and slapping myself.. lol.. then hence, I'm awake..

Also, one time, I was sitting watching a TV programme, on my own, when all of a sudden I gasped m***vely for air, I went somewhere, but where I have know idea.. I had definitely left this realm, and whilst it felt like only a minute, it also felt like hours. Then my son walked in the room and didn't even see me, I knew he had not seen me because he did not acknowledge me. he went into the kitchen and came back into the room and I said hello,, and he jumped out of his skin, and said where did you come from, I replied, I don't know.. lol

I'm sorry to go on in such a random way, but had to tell you my story, there is alot missing here, but this is pretty much the gist of it.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

Love and Light and blessing.xxx

Kathy

Dear Betsy

Thank you for sharing your experience! You describe in great detail a lot of my experience, that I continue going through, and that over time seems to be growing stronger. At times I question my sanity, none of my friends can understand, and just look at me with puzzled faces. However when I come a cross your records it was like a reflection of my sensations and that give me great reassurance that I am not loosing the plot, unless we both do :)
Now I am ok with what's happening, and I don't resist it that much, except when I have a need for odd body movement while in public.
Now I am just curious about all.

Thank you

Hi Betsy, I've reached this book searching in Google for "spontaneous yoga postures" that happened to me this morning. I was so absolutely amazed for what my body was doing on its own that you have been a huge help to me. I've spent all morning doing those yoga-like movements and I finished every spontaneous session putting my hands together in front of my face and doing a reverence (very martial arts thing) again without controlling it (knowing somehow that I was allowed to rest for some minutes). I was just meditating for reaching Jhana states but now I realise that I'm into Kundalini (and I'm beginning to understand that I had a spontaneous and unwanted spiritually awake 25 years ago driving my live to almost death). Just a question: what is the difference between the Jhana path and Kundalini? I cannot find an answer to this. Furthermore, trying to reach Jhana some sources ask to change your focus from breathing to a pleasure sensation. I'm confused and I don't know what to do now that I think I'm into Kundalini. Thanks so much again.

What a relief to find this page! I am, apparently, going through a very intense kundalini awakening process, and was freaking out a little bit, thinking I might be going crazy... I have ALL the symptoms you describe, from altered states of consciousness and visions to extreme body postures in "yoga sessions" that can go on for hours if I don't stop them... And I have never been in contact with kundalini yoga, so I had no idea what was going on. The biggest leap happened at a meditation retreat, where I realised the separation of body and mind, and after that the body started its strong healing process. Of course, looking back, this has been building up for the past year, with the pre-states you describe.
I'm wondering how I should relate to this? Because it does scare me - what if I lose myself completely and don't come back... I'm traveling alone in Asia at the moment, so there's no security net to catch me. Should I not meditate, and try to avoid higher states of consciousness? And for how long can I expect this to be going on? And, what can I say to my family, who would take me to a psychiatric clinic if they knew what I'm doing or would see me in some of the kriyas...? Thank you so much for making the information available!
Love, Sonja

Hi Betsy,

Thank you for your work.

I found your website here through Phoenix Tools, after I had Googled "crunching sounds in the neck" in relation to kundalini.

On reading, I found that I've had plenty of the pops and tingles and cranial cracking associated with an awakening, and I'm grateful for the material, as it supports my journey in this life.

Many thanks and a sublime 2016,
Sherrill

I have had a full blown kundalini awakening and will be so thankful to read your books. I appreciate your story and hopefully your latest will be available as soon as I finish with the first. Thank You